shopping di parenthood expo

i dindt buy much. why? cause i have been spending a bit every month so that i wont feel the huge amount spent on baby stuff hehe:-)
went there to get myself bottle warmer. a few shoppe sell for rm289. there i got it for rm229. so okay. good bargain. and a few more newborn baby wear. this time i got 3 sets of pink! ahah
i hate the crowd but for this purpose i am willing to do it!tired like hell.
and i am also looking for bathtub for baby. but none of it caught my eye. still aiming the bathtub i look at mothercare. even though it is expensive, but i dont know i just love it. will buy it after i buy my baby cot.
so far.
i decided to break my baby shopping spree into a few division. pergh. just like when i am preparing myself for my wedding too.
1st and foremost is breastfeeding stuff.
done with breastpump, sterilizer,bottle and warmer.

then,

baby clothes and wear. buy only a few. only the first month or newborn only. white and a few pink. also done.

then

baby cot and mattress,blanket and etc. not yet. not even one single thing. will insya allah do on my next pay. budget parent to be, macam inilah.as long as no hutang at all for the baby stuff.

then

baby bath. bathtub aiming the mothercare one. then hers baby toiletries will be insya allah aiming for sebamed. why? when i was a baby, my parents use this for me as i have sensitive skin. so will see how my baby will be.


as fpr stroller and car seat, alhamdullilah i dont have to buy since my brother has 2 daughter and i can use their as they are much older now. yahOOooOOOo!

on leave..

on mc today...
sickly gila rasa. headache, stomach ache. body ache. and all..
rasa nak berhenti kerja sekarang!
tapi tak mungkin.
uwaa if only i kerja office, duduk sahaja di meja. kan okay.
ni tidak kerja macam pelayan campur buruh.
bye.

posterior placenta

pulaks! sat low lying placenta, ni posterior placenta pula.
but anyway it is a better news for me, as posterior placenta is nothing to be worried about. and i should trust my al-islam medical center more because she is the specialist rather than my hospital kuala lumpur doctor. :-)
no wonder i can feel more of the baby kicks because of this condition. i believe this is a blessing because the kicking so far has been gentle and so serene.
i love every kicks as it makes me smile.

any HOOooooOO Dr Norlida confirm that my baby is a girl. as she ask me if i know already or not, i told her NO> so the answer wont be bias. as she scan the baby, she says can only see lines. so insya allah it is a baby girl. i am so happy!


okay..let go on with the shopping stuff shall we
i kept my baby stuff in this box, where once is my wedding bed spread heh:-)



this shoe, my mum yang beli because she cannot tahan the cuteness.
cheap rompers.
this is baby girl 1st pink baju. bought at this iranian shop for rm39. so cute!
what i bought so far...
my baby gonna wear white for her first 1 months of life. her grandma dont like colors on newborn babies.
cant wait to add more to this:-)

a date with my baby

im meeting my baby today:-).
i have been worry so much this past 1 month.
worry that people commenting my stomach dindt grow much for a 5 months pregnant lady.
but insya allah im pretty sure my baby is okay.i do feel the baby kick.
will update more on that.

went to port dickson for a short course. worry like hell i might be bleeding because of the traveling. alhamdullilah it is just few spotting.


will update more on the check up soon!


just finish watching the time travelers wife for i dont know how many time. for me it is the best romantic movie ever. im so in love .

follow up

my appointment for baby check up was suppose to be last thursday. but due to some problem, i postponed it to next monday.
im going to port dickson over the weekend for a pharmacist conference. i wasnt supposed to be traveling but wont miss a chance to spent time with my friends.

baby stuff progression is really bad.
sigh, malas gila nak shopping barang baby, boleh?

cant wait for monday check up.everyone has been commenting that my stomach doesnt seem to grow much or shown much.risau pula.
i do feel like it is shrinking a bit.is it possible?
risau.

sunday

cepat betul weekend berlalu. sudah kembali ke weekdays.sigh

clean my room like super clean. because we need the space.
and hubby suap makan nasi. mengada? memang pun. mr hubby memang suka suap saya makan bersungguh-sungguh sampai habis sepinggan nasi.

dah malam ..pergi tidur, minggu ini sibuk sebab weekend kena pergi kursus.

MY TUMMY HURTS REAL BAD...:-(

T.G.I.F.

i am so freaking tired. alhamdulillah it is friday night again! ho yeah!.
went back home, (caught in a little bit of traffic, took longer than 15 minutes to arrive home).
had nasi panas, sambal belacan, telur goreng with kicap, kari ikan and sayur bayam while it is raining heavily. heaven.
had shower.
lay down on the sofa while watching you tube with mr hubby. peaceful.

i notice whenever i touch my husband, my baby will kick more. i think my baby love his daddy too. maybe baby can feel how much i love daddy. and maybe because everytime i touch my husband, my heart beats like a drum and i feel calm and so much love.:-) weee.....

im gonna enjoy my weekend so much.need this so much.

best

we shall not wait for weekend to come, to enjoy ourselves.

went to the bank to settle some bills. ask my husband to drop by at the 7-eleven for some bread, yogurt and milk.

went back home, request mr hubby to hang out by the pool side, have some yogurt and end up jumping into the pool at 9pm! hahhahahahahah

best sangat. and the rest of the stories is 18sx.

so pepaham sendiri.

craving!

IS IT JUST ME OR SOMEONE ELSE TOO THAT HAS NO CRAVING WHATSOEVER DURING PREGNANCY? I DONT KNOW WHAT TO EAT. I AM A BETTER EATER BEFORE. IM HUNGRY.:-(

nine months

is on sale now. went there just now and bought 5 blouse. :-) hurry up while it is still on sale..

baby stuff

owh how crazy i go whenever i shop for my baby. but i can seem to last long. tired and in pain.
anyway i went to the curve today to shop at nine months since they are having this sales. my clothes are all horrible to wear.
and also come upon this blanket that i have been aiming for since i got myself pregnant with discount cheaper than online. happiness.

i also want to but this baby cot in ikea that can change into small bed when our kids grow up. so cool!
rm499. the mattresses is rm300. so all together is rm800 something which is a very good investment i must say..

i have bought 3 sets of baby clothes for changes during hospital stay. it is only for a week wear before the baby put on some weight. petite size.

i dont have to buy stroller and car seats since my brother already have them and my nieces already grew up. so yeah happiness.heheh

cant wait for midvalley exhibition. i wanna buy more baby clothes.

failure mother

actually my pregnancy doesnt consider as bad if want to compare to other people. but those little thing that is happening to me now make me feel like a failure. i am not yet a mother, am i gonna be a bad mother who dont know how to take care of the baby?
owh and i bleed again yesterday. but i asked the doctor already as she said if no blood flowing then it shall be okay.
then okay it is.

sigh.
worried.

why love is very important in marriage

this rely solely on my observation.

i am still in my early marriage life. people might says owh, baru lagi kahwin, tak merasa lagi asam garam rumahtangga. yeah maybe you guys are right. but hey, i have been hearing this statement event before i am married. at first they say, owh tunggu la lepas 3 bulan kahwin, baru tau perangai sebenar pasangan masing-
masing. lepas dah 3 bulan, cakap 6 bulan pula. and it will go on and on and on...

im telling you it will never end!just like when people ask you, when are you gonna have a boyfriend/get engaged/get marry/have kids/have 2 kids/have a dozen kids. hahahahah best. mulut masyarakat.

firstly, why you get marry? for the sake of im aging, my clock is ticking?because everyone is doing so? because hukum agama? because of what. it depends on you individually. everyone is different and none is equal. as for me:

1.i am so in love. i wont lie. soOOOOoOOOo in love.
2.i dont want to loose him, and i dont want anyone else to have him!greedy.
3.hukum agama. sebab dah mula gatal, mana tahan, husband i handsome and macho man. pergh.. hahaha (people dont lie, you guys are the same,everyone find his boyfriend is the most handsome and macho man ever)
4.he is my bestfriend! and he is the only man i can respect, after my father. the only. you see i am stubborn and outspoken and thinks i am always right. so yeah.it is not easy to find a guy who fits this criteria ladies.
5.and it will goes on and on and on..


why do i emphasize on the in love part. come on ladies, if you love him, regardless how long you gonna be together, you will always love him. some people get marry because of money.(what if money habis?) can you still be in a marriage with him? i dont think so!
you gonna see this guy everyday for the rest of your life, will you ever develop hate towards him? okay i dont wanna speak in general here. let discuss me. i love discussing about me.(haha only in blog, real life, i dont talk much about me).

1.i am in love with my husband. why. because i see only the good things about him, even the smallest little thing as he wake up and tap my back whenever i cough like hell in the middle of the night.

2.he wakes up and asked me if im okay everytime i go to the toilet in the middle of the night(walaupun dia dah tahu i nak kencing, like 5 times per night)

3.he bring me a glass of water and put beside my bed so i wont go thirsty and have to wake up and go to the kitchen to drink

4.he kiss me and hug me countless time like he adore me so much even i am fat, smelly and obviously so round this day. cis.

5.he like to buy gadget to make my entertainment life easier.haha

6.even dia cuti, dia akan bangun pagi teman and stare at me while saya siap pergi kerja, baru dia tidur balik.comel.

7.he still call me and sms me everyday,just to say i love you. or the as people always says mengada..and gedik.."dah makan dah?, makan ape?" " dah sampai rumah dah" and on and on.

8.he never buli me! never ask me to cook(sebab saya ada penyakit masa mengandung hehehe) or anything. so understanding right.

9. he lipat kain masa cuti! weeeeeeee

10.he is never moody. best.

and the list goes on and on...


as for jenis-jenis pasangan:

1. pasangan yang seperti suami isteri sebenar.
this is for me a real traditional couple. most of our parents is like this. regardless if they are arranged marriage or use to be in love and decided to get marry.
this couple usually, the husband play most of the role as a man of the house. he works, and he is bossy.
the wife usually is working or mostly is a housewife. cooks, cleans, raise the children and etc, by herself. the husband rarely helps.the children and the wife respect the husband but at the same time is scared of the father. they are not friend. they are husband and wife. father and mother. this kind of guy is usually very responsible.

2.pasangan yang seperti kawan.
this is the new millennium couple.most of us nowadays is like this. where we can hang out and talked about most of the things. we lepaks and can be friend with each other friends. we share chores and responsibility in marriage. we are almost equally the same because both is working. but husband is still husband. when we have kids, husband still can change diapers and feed baby with bottle and food.

3.confuse couple.
both is confuse of each other. whether to still be friend or to be the traditional couple. mixed with each and end up wondering why i get marry. roughly this confuse couple usually married because everyone is doing so. they still have unfinished business. each of them of course. maybe they still wanna travel, chasing after the career but also bonded with the responsibility of having a baby and all.still wanna hang out with the single friend till late at night but the husband/wife not allowed this matter. yeah confuse as i say. this couple usually take a few years to actually reach stable state.

4.couple yang kahwin just for the sake of marriage.
life is still the same except for the fact they are married,live under the same roof, and halal. but other than that both of them lead their own life. and all. the modern and career only type .

5. the mixed of all 4.
hahah common. everyone has a stage where you get confuse. the marriage life is hard if you make it hard. if you make it fun. it will be fun. i love my marriage life. it is so comfortable! that what marriage should be like. a mixed of everything. right.
you cant ditched you friends after married.my husband still allowed me to go hang out with my besties. you cant ditched your career, i am still working, i even have 2 jobs. family. and your own hobbies.( i dont have one, haha)
my husband loves gym, i dont mind him spending hours there. but he knows his limits. and etc.

communication is very important in marriage. understanding is way important. trust. and LOVE! love your husband. says and sms good words, lovely duvey words, call each other by love. be gediks, love it! fight! scream! but with love. be his bestfriend. ups and down. be his wife. be his lover. be everything to him. most importantly loves him! dont let the love slip away.(this is a reminder to me too)


nasihat saya:dont make such a big deal out of everything, let it go. so what if he..this and that... i still love him. he still love me....

dont think much. just let it be. you will be happier.

marriage rocks people!if you make it one.

20th weeks check up

i shall write everything in...pink!

1. went to combine clinic because my asthma got worsen during pregnancy.
2.asthma is way better since i started to use budesonide inhaler.
3.dr heliza from O&G is the bomb.she is so nice and friendly and cheerful. :-)
4.my scan reveal that i am again low lying placenta and breech position.:-(
5.got ATT injection today.sakit :-(
6.next appointment gonna be 3 august 2011.
7. and the baby is a girl!!!!!!!!!!!! :-)
yahOOOoOOO can buy all those pretty in pink stuff.

my pregnancy experience so far

the list goes on and on..

1.nausea and vomiting. all day. until i am 4 months 2 weeks, now i am vomiting early morning only.
2.cough and flu. terrible. my sinusitis went haywire. i am coughing from early pregnancy until now at 5 months. still. bad. but no more flu. just post nasal drip making me cough real bad at night.
3.my asthma. i had asthma attack every night. went to asthma bay in emergency once. get to take nebulizer 3 times in out patient clinic and in the end at staff maternity clinic, the doctor decided i need to start on budesonide inhaler to prevent my asthma from worsening and alhamdullilah it is way much better now.
4.bleeding. i was diagnose with low lying placenta from 13 weeks of pregnancy. up until now whenever it wanna bleed, it will bleed. sigh.this worry me so much, the last bleeding episode is when i drive all the way to sepang for a seminar, i end up bleeding more than i use to, it lasted one day and stop the next day.
5.other than that , are all the normal pregnancy uncomfortable thingy. like back pain, shortness of breath and all.

i am so worried with my sickness that it will do harm to the baby. but people says that if the mother is sick, the baby is healthy.i do hope so.pray for it too.

i am praying for the safety of my baby.

entering

im entering my 20th weeks of pregnancy next thursday. cant wait haha.
5 months pregnant.wow.

cant wait for my next check up on Wednesday! yay! hopefully i can meet up with a specialist and they actually gonna do a scan on me and let me know the gender so that i can start calling my baby his/her name.

shall we play guessing game by now? boy or girl people? heheh :-)

pregnancy progression

i was away for one and a half day for a seminar in sepang. but upon arriving there i notice i have blood stain again on my panty liner. pretty upset about this.
maybe because of the long drive?sigh.

call up my husband and he decided to come and join me for the night just in case. and drive back the car to work and come back to pick me up so that i dont drive.
feel a bit cramp on my stomach now.

sigh. no more blood stain. i supposed it is okay?
my next appointment will be next week.
just gonna wait until then i guess.
sigh.

praying hard everything is okay.

baby stuff

my husband is really paranoid whenever i ask permission from him to buy clothes and the baby stuff.
haha.
he said it is too early.
but i say, i am damn excited.


anyway,since my sayangness afiqah rahmat is in united kingdom(over), i ask her to buy me the breast pump. being such a lovely adorable fiki cantik (hehe) sayangness, she bought me a microwave sterilizer and baby bottle. yay! hehe:-)
my 1st step towards breastfeeding for my baby.

so this is the 1st ever item i bought for my baby.

cant wait to buy those adorable baju-bajuan.

18 weeks :-) check up!

last week, went to hospital kuala lumpur for my 17 weeks check up, where my baby weight is 190gm, today at 18 weeks my baby is 215 gm :-) yay!

i am so happy seeing my baby today. the baby also wave at me, showing me 5 fingers that is masya allah so comel.

but still the baby refuse to show me if the baby is a she or a he. but never mind mummy is still very much happy when the doctor told me that you are healthy! alhamdullilah. cant wait to see you again next month and please show me your gender baby please...

suami saya

sumpah saya sangat bersyukur dapat suami saya.
masya allah, dia sangat penyabar, peyayang dan romantik tahap ultraman taro.



hahaha motif?

sunday

i love my weekend so much.
today woke up feeling so damn hungry. hubby has listed down like everything that is possible to eat but still i am so indecisive. and in the end he decided to fry me some nasi goreng! superbly done. finish one big plate of it. thank you very much mr husband.

and he is not done feeding me, that he take me to levaine for lunch. we had some pasta and lots of pastries. :-)

for tonight my dad gonna belanja us nasi arab! yay!

i am so touch, my husband has been treating me like superbly superb. cooks and make drinks for me. while i dont. i just cant stand cooking for so long. take a lot of my energy off.

today my baby has been kicking more. yay..

and tomorrow we are working again.

what if...suami suruh berhenti kerja?

seriously speaking, i work my ass off to finish my studies. i am not ready born a bright student. i had to study very hard to achieve excellent result.
my primary and secondary school i was an average student for most of the subject. but i am a top student for some subject such as history and english because i would like to be a lawyer. haha

anyway when my father asked me to study pharmacy, i just follow as i dont have much argument to not do so.
as i proceed with the studies, i struggle most of the semester.my fellow classmate is OMG brilliant. most of them was a top scorer in spm and so forth. so yeah. i am a no one.

finish up my diploma with alhamdulillah 3.0pointer and above, work for almost a year when my father send me to do my degree in indonesia. thankfully it is only for 2 and a half year. i struggle too. hahaha

anyway, now that i am working, i felt so bless that i follow my dad advice, but only financially. hahah but the satisfaction is none. i hate working in the hospital. and so i was thinking of becoming a housewife.

i am pretty sure it would be a dissapointment to my parents if i do so. haha i dont know the truth i just figure it out. but when my husband can fully support us financially i will eventually stop working. i would love to have my own business. but being a mom for sure will give me the satisfaction i am looking for in my career.

as for now. i am a working mom to be, so deal with it!

my 17 weeks check up

went there with hope that our government ultrasound is superb enough for me to know the gender of my precious baby. but nah..false hope.
but what i am so piss off about is that, a student actually did my scan today.
and she can go on asking me this question:
"last time scan, cyst belah mana ye? kanan ke kiri"
and i was like....
"what?! mana ada cyst!" dah dengar aku sound macam tu, a senior medical assistant came in and ask the student where did she find my so call cyst.
she showed some darken spot on the ultrasound.
and the medical assistant told her that...:
"itu shadow, bukan cyst."
and the girl simply says, "owh silap itu patient tadi"
i was like seriously WTF? gila this is not something you simply blurted out and take it back by saying opsss im sorry it was someone else cyst. bodoh! sumpah bodoh!


anyway, my oral glucose test came back normal. my fasting sugar level was 3.9 and my post prandial level is 5.2. alhamdullilah. will undergo one more of this.

i was then referred to a combined clinic because my asthma worsen during my pregnancy.
my next visit will be on the 6 of july 2011.
very fast. not even in one months time.

but my al-islam medical center will be next week on thursday, and i am so hoping i can know the gender by then! i am freaking excited!

perasaan

tidak tahu kenapa , hari ini rasa sayu pulak tiba-tiba. sigh.

tak apa lah, tidur lebih baik, sorry baby, mummy memang tak lalu nak makan malam. esok mummy makan awal okay.

peaceful relaxing sunday

it is coming to an end. i need to wait the whole freaking 5 days until weekend come again. how come weekdays is so long but weekend is so short? so unfair.

this morning woke up at 9 am, went straight to the laptop to surf, hubby is preparing his breakfast, (as usual im not eating, as i dont have the appetite), my dad is listening to some jazz music in his room and im chilling to that as well.

then mr hubby give me a good massage, doze off when my mum call me up ask me if i wanted to go and find my sulur keladi which is a frustration as the food court dont have any.

went back , eat lunch (taste blurghh), sleep again, woke up and watch some movies with mr hubby and then we chat for 2 hours when we realize it is 9pm and hubby yet to eat his dinner. (again, im not eating).

clean up my room a bit, do some laundry and i shall go to bed again. hahahaha

really , peaceful sunday.

eating during pregnancy

eating during pregnancy should be a bliss to every single pregnant ladies. your taste buds is booming and you can think of the unthinkable food. funny, if previously you can only finish a plate of rice, i have seen a skinny lady whom got pregnant, ate 2 plate of rice with extra dishes and all. crazy!!

but not me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for 4 months i cant eat well.most of the food taste blurghhh. especially plain white rice.
okay i came into a conclusion, i hate food at this time around due to that im in my 1st trimester. and the fact that before i am pregnant, im a avid food lover. i love food, i love plain white rice. hahaha

but this past few days i can accept food already. not all, the appetite is not that good. but i can eat. usually i woke up in the morning i wont feel hungry or think of food until my husband force me to eat. if im at work, i will eat earlier before works start.

but i dont mind much, at least my weight wont go up like crazy, right? since im already fat. owh.. anyway.

i do believe that i dont need to eat for 2 even though i am pregnant now. because i am pretty sure that little thing we call a baby doesnt eat much. so i dont want to simply take this opportunity to over eat.
if i were to be hungry and in craving i would eat only a little bit of portion. yes i reduce my portion.

other than that i am a believer that vitamin is important, but i dont think obimin is essential. since the amount of vitamin that is stated in the obimin is so small.
i take folic acid 5 mg, calcium lactate , fish oil, b complex and vitamin c.
for other sources of vitamin we can get it from the food that we take.

correct me if im wrong.

i am lucky that i love drinking plain water. if i am home, i dont drink tea, coffee, milo or whatsoever. since we were kids. we opted for plain water during breakfast, lunch or dinner. but not if we were outside.
so drinking lots and plenty of water is very crucial.

other than that, fruits. and some nuts. like almond.

yeah that is pretty much of it.my pregnancy diet. i will change i know. since i am getting my appetite back now. but i would like to remind myself, never to overeat, because i am so worried of gestational diabetes.

if the baby is a girl

insya allah next week, we will know the gender of the baby. i wanna know. as i hate surprises and i wanna be prepared. to take care of baby girl is completely different from baby boy. obviously.

usually, whenever my husband and i arrived home from work, both of us will spent time on the bed, talking bout the day we had, what we eat, what we do, we laugh, we tickled each other, kisses and hugs and etc. everyday since we got married up until now, never failed.
i love our evening together.
anyway,today, he told me he saw one shop that sell barbie stuff, barbie house that is human size(for kids) and tea table set. he says he wanna buy those stuff for his baby girl if we got one and call his baby girl his princess.
and he will play with her, play tea time and all.
auww..so cute.... princess.

i know if we ever got a boy, he will take my baby boy to the gym! hahah no question asked.

anyway, cant wait for next week!

oral glucose tolerance test

for those whom parents is a diabetic patient, predominant the father, will have to go trough this test during your pregnancy. furthermore i am fat, so of course i need to go trough this test.

this morning i went to O&G department to do this test. at 8.am sharp i was there. they called up my names, took my pre blood and they give me this drink made from 75g of glucose mixed with 300ml of warm water. i drank it rakusly! hahahah so that i dont gag or taste the drink as much.

need to wait for 2 hours for post blood to be taken.

i am praying the result will be okay. but insya allah nothing to worry about because i have been checking my blood sugar level constantly. pre and post meals.

will know the result next week during my monthly check up.

ps: my husband is down with high fever and i am so sad. deeply sad. sigh.

ultrasound

okay mummy is so excited and getting more in love with you, that every second i cant think of anything else but you my baby. and i want to see what you are doing in the tummy, i feel like having ultrasound every minutes of the day.
and so, mummy open up you tube,and look at someone else ultrasound, and found out that baby are all the same.
at 17th weeks you like to move a lot, maybe there are so many space for now. touch your face. it feel like you are doing acrobatic and yoga too. hahahah so comel. cant tahan.

anyway, i miss you and cant wait for next week scan! insya allah im gonna know if you are a boy or a girl let's the guessing game begin!

breast pump

i have been going trough lots of blogs and reading and asking around about this. i know most of mothers here use medela freestyle.it is good,i am tempted to buy this as well. but my friend told me that if we want to use it without the electricity, we need to use battery? i dont know if it is re-chargable battery that is included.or whatsoever.

anyway it is so confusing that in the end im just gonna stay with my first choice. the avent isis iq duo breast pump. ask help from my sayangness in UK to buy me this as in malaysia it is wayyyy super expensive.


ok that is the first thing i bought for the baby. i really want to try fully breast feed. next thing to buy on the list is a mini fridge/freezer for the breast milk.

memang mengandung itu rezeki

when decided to get married, my husband and i were never put high hope on getting pregnant real soon. i was also worried that i might not be able to conceive. anyway, i want to be a mother. and i know i will be a really mad mother. hahah bugging the children constantly and everything. and im sure insya allah my husband is gonna be the one who soothes the children when i go mad, membebel to the children. i am garang after all.

in march 21, we get to know that i am pregnant. alhamdullilah i am bless and happy of course. straight away told my mum when i thought of keeping it as a secret first but i cant hahah. and then my best friend and everyone else.

trough out the early pregnancy i am so worried of whether i am doing everything right in taking care of the baby. i took a few types of medicine because i was really sick. and etc.
i felt like wanting to do ultrasound everyday just to check on my baby ,if the heart is still beating.
alhamdullilah so far it is. i am hoping my baby will be born safely and healthy.
amin..

i am thankful that Allah s.w.t granting me this opportunity to be a mother. a life long commitment. a rezeki from him. but trough out this pregnancy i was test by many things. firstly i am a very sick pregnant women! my allergies all decided to attack me this very moment, my sinusitis went horrible, my asthma. flu and cough that lasted until today , 4 months already.
and also bleeding and low lying placenta (at this moment i felt like a failure) i cant take care of my pregnancy well. seriously.
until last week when i had this spotting almost every week, went to see doctor and she said everything is fine. the placenta is going up. and the baby is healthy.
alhamdullilah.

i had a friend, whom is pregnant for the second one, after the first one miscarriage 2 months ago. and this time, she had the same problem, bleeding . doctor give her a jab and hormone orally and aspirin for the womb to be strong and blood flow to the baby sufficient enough for its to grow.
but she got a news today that the baby doesnt grow. i felt for her. she wants this real bad. but maybe allah can give you rezeki. but at the same time allah can take it back.

i hope she will be strong.



ps:i am still craving for asam jeruk. yummies. food still taste blaaaaah to me.

when husband is away

i am lost when my husband is not around. as i love to kacau him all the time. i poke him in real life and in facebook. i love to bullies him around haha. just that i love having him around 24 /7. face it i am POYO when it comes to him.

we were not together this weekend. he had to go to kelantan back to his hometown because our cousin got married.i cant travel due to the low lying placenta thingy and bleeding.

anyway on his way back home, the road had a massive accident and it was jammed packed. he depart from kelantan at 3 pm and only reach home in kl at 4 in the morning!

i was damn mamai when he was home this morning. he asked me to go back to sleep and as i awake this morning he is at my side. happiness.

had a very good morning with mr husband today. had breakfast and send him to work. as i am on medical leaves until wednesday.
he went to work for merely an hour when suddenly he opens up the bedroom door asking me, siapa hantar sms rindu tadi? ni orang tu dah balik sebab ada orang rindu!
i was like heh?
hehehehehehheh yay husband skip work to spend time with me.
and so we shall lepak the whole day.
adios samigos.

perempuan ketika bercinta

perempuan hanya boleh mencintai seorang sahaja lelaki dalam hidupnya. selebihnya kasih dah sayang mungkin akan tertumpah pada anak-anak mereka.
suami on the other hand, they can love many. that is why they are allowed to do poligami. dont deny it. but the truth is, kalau setakat boleh bercinta banyak, tapi tak mahu memberikan nafkah zahir, jangan fikir la ye wahai tuan-tuan. selagi masih terpaksa mengharapkan isteri bekerja bagi membantu urusan perbelanjaan harian, dan tidak mampu memberikan keperluan terutamanya kewangan, jangan harap la ya.
aku rasa sebab tu la isteri-isteri salih yaacob, tak boleh menghalang suami mereka berkahwin lain. memang mampu. tengok financial dia. kan? dari segi lain aku tak boleh komen sebab aku tak kenal dia.

perempuan kalau sudah mencintai seseorang itu, kekasih mereka buat salah banyak kali pun masih menerima. memang terus terang aku cakap, dari pandangan dan observation aku la kan, perempuan ni agak bodoh semasa bercinta. kerana hati kita lembut, perasaan sayang susah nak hilang dan kita ini sudi memaafkan.
terutamanya kalau itu adalah suami kita.

tujuan aku menulis post kali ini adalah kerana sahabat baik aku.
dia sudah break up dengan kekasihnya. di mana dia sanggup kehilangan kawan-kawan kerana lelaki ini. kami dulu berlima. selepas dia bercinta dengan lelaki ini, dia lupakan semua kawan dia kerana bagi lelaki itu kami ini adalah tidak baik. B*** S***
and she believe him. all because of love kan? and she ditch us!
(never ever left your friend for the sake of a love, stupid)
anyway, of course la lelaki yang suka mengcontrol perempuan atau kekasih dia for the sake and showing off how he is the man, arrogant and selfish tak kemana. di takdirkan lelaki ini curang. ada perempuan lain.and they broke off.

stupid enough, the girl who masa lepas break up so frustrated, change herself to the old her and try to connect back to her bff.
anyway, the guy suddenly realize that the new lover is nothing like her. and wants to get back together. for his reason is she is way much better.

and you guess it right, she forgive him and get back together. STUPID! so not worth it. if a guy ditch you for another girl, he is so not worth it! im telling you, he got the free ticket to do it again ! regardless dia cakap dah berubah ke ape ka, he knows if he did it again, he can always come back to you.
dia akan sentiasa buka option dia, to choose who is the best to be his lifelong partner.
seriously ladies, please, once is enough, how can you endure such pain over and over again from the same guy?

i can share you this, because i had gone trough a breakup. it is painful! worse it was a 5 years relationship.but im not stupid. a week is enough ladies to mourn over the relationship. dont mourn for the guy, but the time you waste for such a guy. and alhamdullilah lucky me Allah s.w.t has shown me what an a**h*** he is.until now.

but it is all up to you now ladies. as for my friend, she insist wants to give the guy a second chance. i wish her all the best. and of course she ditches us already now! hahahahah typical when girl is in love.
but i have learn my lesson, i am so lucky to have such bestfriend who stick with me regardless how i behave and teach me the value of friendship , love and life.

remember take the lesson you had in life as a guidance for the future. stupid enough to be fool once, dont make it happen again.

my baby progress

i felt less satisfied visiting hospital kuala lumpur gynae for this moment as i am not actually meeting a real doctor. just Houseman and Medical officer. who always give negative feedback.
hate it.

my next week appointment will be my oral glucose tolerance test.because i am fat and my father is a diabetic patient i had to do it at earlier stage of pregnancy.
currently i am not gaining any weight or much. because i barely eat.

today i went to kampung baru medical center to see dr norlida because i am still having blood staining. went there with hopes the baby is okay. and yes indeed. the baby is okay. in fact during the scan, the baby is dancing( because the baby is moving its hand and feet all the time) and before the doctor end the scan, the baby turn upside down! hahah so cute, just remembering it makes me laugh. my baby is alhamdullilah a very active baby.

my placenta went up already! yay! no wonder i felt my stomach is harden this past few days. yay!but the doctor gave me mc for 4 days because of my bleeding. she want me to rest. anyway i am happier today, i have been quite depress because i had low lying placenta. but now okay. hopefully the placenta will stay.

series of dating

my husband and i have been so long since we went out on a date.
so we decided that this weekend gonna be our series of dating.

and so we begin...first and foremost with food.
and then we went for pillow shopping. reason for us to sleep more tomorrow morning. muahahha, and then tonight gonna be movie date.
and tomorrow night gonna be our romantic night. yay!

and many more...excited and so happy :-)

rindu makanan JOGJA

i miss my daily food while im back then in Yogyakarta Indonesia. for 2 and half years eating this food doesnt make me bored at all. i wish i can have them all here in malaysia.first and foremost i miss ayam bakar in this shop. the sambal is to die for. sedapnya. ish..melel
then sambal special. its sambal terung is the best ever!

even the simple friend chicken has taken my heart away.yogya chicken.




lotek. is somewhat like gado-gado.. my favourite. sigh. rindu.




merdeka bakery that sell my morning kueh, that usually i ate with cili padi on its own!
my favourite nasik padang!
rindu.

wondering

sometimes i am wondering if my baby is okay. is it growing good? did i do anything wrong? what if i did? what if i ate something that i shoudnt?
now that i have low lying placenta, i felt real bad. like a failure.
i hope my baby will be fine.
currently i am having a real bad cough, real bad.
sigh.


im in love with my unborn baby already.

owh NOooooOo

my baby and its home decided to go down mummy tummy . low lying placenta. im so upset and sad.
sedih sangat!
i wanna be healthy for my baby.
failed rasanya.
inikah rasanya failure bila menjaga bayi tak sebaik mungkin.
mendoakan semoga everything selamat.
i love you bayi.

my husband loves me very much

i am pretty sure all of your husband loves you very much indeed too.:-)

aren't we lucky?


well i do feel lucky. i adore my husband so much. the fact that he instantly knows who i am. understand me very much, and always wants to fulfill whatever i wants. i really appreciated it.

i am amaze at his patience. especially with me being such a lazy bum nowadays, and always sicks. he never ever complaint of how i behave and acted.
caring indeed. the fact that i am such a rebellious mother to be who is coughing for the past 3 months but still drinks ice, he makes me honey drink every night so that the cough will soothes and i can sleep better.


he never ever failed to make me smile, laugh, and feel happy. i love being around him. just him. just thinking of him makes me feel like there are butterfly in my stomach. make my heart beat faster and makes me feel calmer.

so girls, find a husband who is a friend of yours. who you can actually be yourself in front of him without even pretending a single thing. if he accpet you for who you are, you will be happier.

find a guy who you can actually:
1.eat uncontrollably
2.fart
3.burping
4.laugh out loud
5.be a lazy bum
6.selalu merajuk and he will pujuk
7.who has the same taste like you at least in a few things, if you have nothing in common, haiyaa a bit problem ma.
8.snore
9.talk nonsense
10.romantic(im telling you, in the future, you will be pisses of if he is not)
11.caring and loving to max
12.street smart
13.if you are lucky, you are his first ever love.(i am weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee)
14.who can get along with your sibling! all of them! (like meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee)
15. can get along with your MUM!
16.who has his own hobbies. very important so that you can have yours too.
17.who is close and respect his mother, not manja ya to his mother.
18. who have many friend but not much of a best friend( then he will spent more time with you and the family.very important)
19. who doesnt like to lepak late at night at mamaks with his friends.(sakit jiwa nanti someday, trust me)
20. who his best friend is you.:-)


i love you mr hubby, and baby loves you too.

my baby @ 3months/ 12 weeks

went to kampung baru medical center just now. why i choose this hospital? no specific reason, 1st foremost its a islamic hospital. 2nd, i went there once for a procedure and they respect aurat and also their service was very nice.

i called in without an appointment, had to wait around 1 hour before they call me up. and then at last can see the baby with my husband. the heartbeat, masya allah strong and loud. and the baby size is 14 weeks bukan 12 weeks. hahahah big baby. obese. bahaya!
mak dia yang obese.
im so happy.

owh beranak situ ada package , if tak ada masalah rm1300 sahaja. tiba-tiba rasa nak beranak situ plak. anyway if memang tak ada complication ape-ape, why not?

motherly instinct

i work in a hospital. where i dispense medication to hundreds of patient everyday.
anyway, sometimes there will be babies crying because i am pretty sure by the time they end up in pharmacy they are all exhausted and just wanted to get home.
babies....

usually we will give ways to this mother with crying babies, where we will make do their meds faster and let them go home.
and other patient wont mind too. well let just say the sound of babies crying is not a nursery rhymes.

but this one incident that i noticed is that, one day a baby cried. omg so loud. and i pity the baby so much. i was looking over the counter trying to spot the baby and the mother. but i couldn't find. then my friend pint point a lady sitting without her baby on her lap or not she is not cuddling the baby.
so where is the baby???!!!
on the floor. a toddler i must say a one year old!
stupid mother! she dress her baby well in a cute pink dress. but dare to let her baby crying (maybe releasing her tantrum) on the flood of a hospital! how stupid is that!??????????????!!!!!!!!

come on! if your tired nonetheless of your baby tantrum, your baby is sick! you should console her! stupid mother! not dropping your baby on the floor just because you are giving up!
stupid mother!


sumpah.


tolonglah...janganlah anda semua nak kahwin, just because nak kahwin, nak reception yang grand, nak nikah day, nak dress cantik cantik, nak semua tu sebab semua kawan dah kahwin! kahwin is a big responsibility! please only get marry if you are truly ready!


jangan ada anak if you think just as semua orang kahwin beranak , aku nak beranak jugak! semua orang ada anak aku nak anak jugak, semua orang kata anak tu rezeki nak ada anak juga. ramai orang nak ada anak just because dah kahwin kenalah ada anak. anak is a big responsibility ! kalau tak ready tolonglag family planning. macam mana nak tahu ready, amik anak sesiap jaga seharian, kalau berak pun susah nak tolong basuh, pampers tak tahu nak salin bila, nak pujuk bebudak makan pun tak tahu, nak kasi tido pun tak reti, nak kasi attention tak pandai dan sebagainya..
atau erti kata lain, kalau masih mementingkan diri sendiri, masih rasa nak dapatkan sesuatu untuk diri sendiri, tak reti nak sacrifice untuk anak dan family. jangalah kahwin atau ada anak! atau erti kata lain ...SELFISH! tak payah la.....!!

tolonglah...


emosi aku teringat budak tu dok atas lantai.benci mak macam tu. aku dispense pun rasa nak tampar muka perempuan tu!

spending time with mr hubby

we went back to my in law house in alor setar. my family in law treating me awesomely. i feel so bad for not helping out much as i am so damn tired. by the second day i almost recover we went back to kuala lumpur already. haha.

those 2 days i spend more time with mr hubby in the room relaxing with nothing distracting us. well in KL we have UNIFI were both of us spend a lots of time surfing the net, and work of course.

i just love lying on the bed, talking to mr hubby especially those days when we are still a couple. the memories is just amazing..

okay tomorrow still a holiday for me...
off to bed.

suami saya semasa mengandung

when i found out that im pregnant that morning, i showed him the UPT to him as soon as i finished showering. he is still asleep.
he was in shock that i woke him up with a stick in my hand.
he was very happy of course.


that morning he waited for me to get ready for work, he dindt do anything until i left. he just look and smile.

as day passes by, he treat me so wildly nicely i feel so guilty. heheh yet so damn thankful that i have him as a husband.
i am pretty much sure all husband is the same when the wife got pregnant. right?

1. he now iron his own clothes.
2.he cooked himself.
3.he massage and cuddle me every time im whining.
4.he woke up at wee hours to serve me a glass of water or just to pat my back because i cough a lot.
5.he is really concern of the food that im eating.
6.he go extra mile to buy food that i want to eat. even at 11 pm at night.
7. he let me not to do anything all day rule. nothing.until now. Hoyeah so heavenly good.
8.and all those extra little thing that touches my heart.

i love you mr husband. always . thank you for treating me so nice.

first check up

i decided to just stick to one hospital for check up. and i choose none other than hospital kuala lumpur. easy. as i work there as well.

went to the outpatient department to request for a referral letter.
went to ONG department to make an appointment. i dont know that once you receive the referral letter, they already start your check up.
did my ultrasound. see the baby heart beat for the first time. call up my husband to make him jealous as he wasnt around that day.haha

do blood test. HB okay.

so alhamdullilah so far everything is okay.

next appointment will be on the 16/5/2011.

weekend

our weekend usually consist of food.
we would have siblings gathering and each of us will cook our specialty.
it will either be a theme of western, or eastern.
either way everyone must bring something to the table.
last week we had a cook out of few of our favorite dishes.
and this week was western.
sedap.

owh i have been getting less nausea nowadays.
and can tolerate rice already. as during lunch i had banana leaf rice in bangsar.

im also less tired. as i can clean up the house.

my parents is coming back tomorrow. cant wait to have my dried apricot. hahahaha

pregnancy update

i am officially hating RICE. i want to eat it so badly. but i cant accept it at all. but if the rice is a bit sticky and tasty( like nasi dagang, nasi lemak) tolerable. but if just plain white rice, hurm, lupakanlah..

i can tolerate all kind of noodle. i think. so far. and any western food.
i have been eating just friend chicken for lunch. even tried to eat it once with rice. failed.

owh i miss eating white plain rice. sedapnya...

i can imagine all kind of food with their owh so yummy taste. but once i eat it, yucky all taste horrible. i hate food when i eat them but when i think of them yummy!!!

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..


i miss food.

pregnancy update

for the past few weeks, all food to me is BLAH. dindt taste nice at all.
i dont like all kind of food.

uwaaaa and im hungry.

but i do eat, but just for the sake of eat. tak sedap.
NASI tak sedap langsung! omaigod.

okay so not good to be complaining!

okay.. off to bed.

things i do

went to work today. feel so upset and horrible because i dint get to send my parents to the airport due to WORK.

went back home and dress up to watch LAT THE MUSICAL but end up going back home earlier because im thinking of WORK tomorrow as well.

i hate that kind of life.

and im tired. i dont like my work.

i hate facing the horrible patient who dont appreciated and respect the pharmacist. or might as well i say this GOVERNMENT WORKERS.

without high pay or raise or bonus we work damn hard for you guys who pay so little as taxes or the service fees. be more respectful.please.

i rather serve those people who actually pay for the services such as in the private hospital. because they are more civilize, respectful and are not full of shit.
they dont lie to you or cheat you.
they are honest customer.who pay for your service and professionalism.
they dont beg you.
sigh.

hubby less

i cant live without mr husband! tabikKKkkkk spring dekat pasangan yang berjauhan. sumpah tak mampu. owh hubby come back soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hubby outstation again...

im sooOOoOooO bored. No mr nik to give me huggies and kisses. no m rnik to layan me mengadu domba.
im tired and i miss him so much.

dang............
wednesday come faster.

pregnancy update

im having a real bad allergies currently. due to the pregnancy and fever. i am also coughing and sneezing non-stop.
im having fever and doctor give me MC for a day only.hence the day off friday that im taking for myself.

food craving: is LAKSA. all kind of LAKSA. you name it, laksa penang, johor, sarawak, laksam and asam laksa all eaten.

but usually at night i am so tired i usually went to bed without any meals at all.
sleep it off. too tired.

pants is getting tights. i think i am putting too much weight. i need to exercise. this weekend if im feeling much better. i better do some swimming or power walking.

today im turnin

hemoglobin

my hemoglobin is low.no wonder i look so pale.
anyway, im constantly tired and sleepy nowadays.
okay off to bed.

my allergy

yesterday i was sneezing like crazy. like all the time.
so i took a half day off and went home straight to bed.

alhamdulillah today i am well.
i had to wear mask all the time today at work.
prevention. lemas. but for the sake of the baby i actually wear it until 5.30 pm!
wow to me.
anyway, hopefully i will insya allah still be healthy as for tomorrow and days to come. amin..

currently my asthma is not doing me any good. i am having difficulty in breathing. my stomach is frequently cramping.
and i have back pain!
yikes.

end of the year

if this pregnancy insya allah , allah make it happen, cuti bersalin 3 bulan yo! terbaik lah. cepatlah bersalin! 3 bulan tak payah kerja. pergh layan...

im pregnant

it is confirm. i am so far pregnant. 4 weeks and 4 days.
insya allah if this baby is surely mine, then it will be in god willing.

i have seen doctor just now to confirm.
heheheheheheheh


okay i am now on folic acid, and calcium( i cant drink milk as i am lactose intolerance), and fish oil.
as for now i have immediately quit drinking coffee.
owh coffeeeee kuuu.
i miss you.

on being pregnant(again)

im not on any birth control pill. i just go with the flow.
the thing that i am so afraid that im pregnant is that what if i dont know how to take care of the pregnancy?
i am often sick.
i rely solely on drugs to feel better.
if im pregnant i cant take any drugs( i mean most of it)
what if i cant stand the symptoms? especially when i got my allergy?
sigh.

anyway not only that, whatever it is we dont have a solid plan on how to take care of the baby?!
i mean ....sigh.
okay....whatever

owh nOOOOOOoOoOOO

my period was supposed to come today! usually it come early morning! but now it is noon! where is my period???!! owh noOOOOoOO!! please come soon.
please...............................
doom!!!!

coming back

mr hubby is coming back today from kota kinabalu.
i take half day off to clean up the room.
hahahahhahahaha
coi.
anyway, cant wait for him to come back as i miss him terribly.
adios samigos

being in a long distance relationship

hahahahahah
i maybe not a good person for you to talked about this. (actually i used to be in a long distance relationship that failed. but wait for it...... not because of me, but himself. my ex is the one who gave up on it, not me. so im cool)

anyway, currently, mr nik is outstation(again!) previously he was in negeri sembilan,melaka and johor. and now in kota kinabalu(busy shopping on my behalf and he is so excited to do so) eheh chomel.

and so..we are on skype again. (owh wait, mr nik and i was in a long distance relationship for almost a year! back then when we were still a student, as im in indonesia and he is in malaysia) loh.
i lupa.

thank you skype for exist in this world. the different for skyping now compare to before is that, i can actually wear sexy and all in front of the laptop as before we are yet married to each other. hahahahah

okay waiting for mr nik to come back from PASAR that he visited 3 times in a day to shop and eat. okay he is back now. bye.

on being pregnant

nope, i am not pregnant yet. but even the thought of it kind a scare me.
why? dont even asked. i dont think that we are capable of taking care of a baby right now. in many ways.
financially
emotionally
timing!
workload!
space!
house!
maid?! where to find? money to pay for it?
career wise?
health issues? as i always depend on drugs for every symptoms that came upon me!
hahahahahha

but i am planning anything. maybe Allah s.w.t knows that we have all those problem and we are not capable of haha

bye bye kuching

waiting for flight back to semenanjung. i had such a great time. but im missing my room, my house and especially my comfy bed.
meet up with my father's wife friend. she is so nice.
and give us good meal. i have been eating non stop since i been here.
anyway bye bye kuching.


i wanna go sabah please.

i wanna complete malaysia first before travelling overseas, which i travel already but hahahahah i love malaysia yo(and it is affordable)and i can holiday in luxury.r

kuching

kuching best. since im having not a backpackers kind a holiday but th lifestyle of the rich and famous just the way i like it ah ah ahahaahha

anyway.
will update soon, too full to concentrate.
PULLMAN awesome.:-)

KUCHING

im off to kuching for a few days. just following my husband who was supposed to be outstation alone. since the air ticket is cheap, i might as well follow him right?

will be staying in pullman.

will update later:-)

suami saya cakap

saya ini serbaguna.
hahahahhahahahhahaha
please elaborate.

i asked him why?
he answered, you are always there. in good time or bad time.
anytime nak pakai ada. hahahhahaha demmmit.
macam tools pulak.

anyway, whatever you called me, i still love you.

missing him

my husband is out of the city for few days. to tell you the truth i am missing him like crazy. cant stand it. i feel so lonely. i am wishing for the day to pass quickly. everything seem not okay, not normal. im having almost a bad day everyday since he is away.
not to mention i am sick! diarrhea, fever, flu etc etc right after he is away.

previously once he left me for almost 2 days, i was okay. but semakin lama kahwin, dah tak boleh. i cant be apart. he is part of me. i am so comfortable with him that without him i am lost. seriously i am lost. totally.
he is coming back tomorrow.
hurm.

i miss him.

my heart goes to you all yang berjauhan dengan husband. very tough of you!