on leave..

on mc today...
sickly gila rasa. headache, stomach ache. body ache. and all..
rasa nak berhenti kerja sekarang!
tapi tak mungkin.
uwaa if only i kerja office, duduk sahaja di meja. kan okay.
ni tidak kerja macam pelayan campur buruh.
bye.

things i do

went to work today. feel so upset and horrible because i dint get to send my parents to the airport due to WORK.

went back home and dress up to watch LAT THE MUSICAL but end up going back home earlier because im thinking of WORK tomorrow as well.

i hate that kind of life.

and im tired. i dont like my work.

i hate facing the horrible patient who dont appreciated and respect the pharmacist. or might as well i say this GOVERNMENT WORKERS.

without high pay or raise or bonus we work damn hard for you guys who pay so little as taxes or the service fees. be more respectful.please.

i rather serve those people who actually pay for the services such as in the private hospital. because they are more civilize, respectful and are not full of shit.
they dont lie to you or cheat you.
they are honest customer.who pay for your service and professionalism.
they dont beg you.
sigh.

a bad workers??

as most of my friends knows that i hate being a pharmacist. my first ever ambition was to be a lawyer. i was so into being in a law field, previously, i memorize the history text book, and i was the english debaters team.
anyway,
when my father decided that i should be a pharmacist instead, i just agreed with him because i have no other choice, voicing out to him wasnt an option back then. i just follow the path he gave me.
i had a hard time studying pharmacy. as the interest is very low and it is hard for me to understand nor coping up with the studies. but i grad with good cgpa for my diploma, and better yet i was accepted in all the job interview i went to and even offered 6 jobs as a pharmacist assistant even before i graduated.
and so i work, and got a title of MAMA BOSAN by my sister whom, hate it whenever i came back from work all i did was sleeping. i was tired mentally and physically by doing something i dont really love.
one day, my dad told me that i will be furthering my studies to indonesia. for degree in pharmacy program for 2 and a half year.yikes, all the way the i go and got myself a degree.
and then came in the provisionally registered pharmacist( kind a houseman thingy like), it was horrible for me.i hate it even more.
and now a pegawai farmasi, where i am fully registered pharmacy, i am tired of doing this and hating going to work every morning! i was like huh? sampai bila ya?

and now i am trying my hardest to change. i am, like nicer to the patient. (but i am still strict, all those patient who begging me for more medicine or more supply of their drug, will be turn down) sorry.
i talked nicely, and smile a lot more even though as patient number strike 200 i can no longer smile or even look at their faces. tired!

and i dont know if i still want to be a lawyer.

currently i know i will be super duper master good in:
1)being an event planner! i love managing something(im bossy)
2)being a chef, haha i am skillful
3)interior or landscape designer
4)lawyer, i love a good smack on the head argument muahaha
5)lecturer or a teacher( get in class, do a quick lecture, quiz, smack student head, go home, cool!)

i know i should be thankful, that i am educated and a professional, that i have a good job, awesome family, marvelous husband, great friends, wonderful home and car, but i want to be able to say i love my jobs as well.
just that. maybe one day it will turn around, that maybe one day i will love my job, i know that day will come.(maybe when i become the boss) haha
but right now, i am just a pharmacist.