breastfeeding

i still think that i dont breast feed aleena correctly i mean the way she latch on me. she seem to get only nipple most of the time. but since she is comfortable that way i always make do. no wonder my breast and nipple is still sore.

i am watching some videos to correct it. since no one teach me how to breastfeed correctly and i am learning it myself anyway since day 1. and now i wanna learn breast feed while lying down. so that i can sleep at night. but i am scared to do so because my breast is kind a too big and i might suffocate aleena.

and since every time i breastfeed aleena, the other side of the breast always leaks some milk. some i mean usually 1 0z every feeding! and wet my bra and my t-shirt, so i get this avent milk collector. and now i can collect some milk to store since i am so lazy to pump! wohooOoo.i need to go to work at least a day to settle a few document. and the thought of leaving her is really scarring me because of my milk stock. and so i hope i can manage to stock some milk for her while i will be away for a while. ok malas gila nak pump susu jangan end up i gave up and give her formula. and by giving formula doesnt mean im a bad mom.as long as i feed her then it is alright.

the reason that i am so upset with breast pumping session is that whenever i pump i always get 1-2 oz only. max 3oz. then aleena will wakes up to breastfeed. then i have to give up the one i already pump.sigh. since i am so damn lazy, i dont find the time to pump yet. will do soon. hehe.

i really want to breast feed while lying down but baby aleena is so small. sigh. grow up bigger and fast baby!