i worked

i worked really hard this past 3 weeks.
my room is a messed.
yesterday went out until 2.30 am with mr hubby and when i came home i was tired as hell. went to bed and woke up at 7 am and get ready for work.
work from 8am-2pm and came back home, that mr husband has folded all our clothes and make the bed, plus vacuum the entire room! blesses. love it.
thank you sayang.

sayang suami anda

muahahahhaha
tajuk, over.

why i love my husband?
1. he is my bestfriend,let me tell you why.
he never ever condemn me, accept me for who i am, always there for me, i can talked to him about anything, he knows my deepest secret,i can reach him 24 hours a day, i can do anything with him.he is me.

2.i am so comfortable with him, i can be myself.
bila masa bersama dengan suami, saya tidak perlu berlakon menjadi orang lain atau berpura-pura. setelah maklum didalam post yang sebelumnya, saya memang bukan seorang yang bersopan-santun, dimana apabila cuba menjadi sedemikian rupa saya berubah menjadi seorang perempuan yang gedik. ya ampun....
saya juga pelahap semasa makan, suka duduk bersila atas kerusi walaupun di restoran mahal.coi, dan saya juga ada banyak perangai buruk lain sehingga kan malu dengan diri sendiri walaupun suami tak ada perasaan itu. ahahahahah
tapi saya hormat suami saya.respect wa cakap sama lu. hormat sangat!
(walaupun saya tak kisah kentut di depan suami saya, ya ampun.. tapi saya hormat dia. wth?)

3.he is the only one who understand me so much!
ini adalah kerana dia sangat pemerhati(observer), observer gila. setiap tindak-tanduk saya sudah diketahuinya, kalau nak kerek dibelakang memang tak lepas la(ya allah mintak simpang tak buat semua ni). dia tahu bila ada sesuatu yang tak kena dengan saya. seperti contoh, kalau dia bertanya,kenapa ni? saya akan jawab tak ada apa-apa(jawapan bodoh), dan dia akan tahu ada something wrong immediately tanpa ignorance akan cuba meyelesaikan permasalahan itu.
so sekarang senang straight to the point je la kan? (tak payah aku berlakon, nak berkias-kias nok)

4.he is macho man and so handsome. drools....
okay fine, pertama kali melihat dia(hensemnya mamat body builer ni)yummy yummy, melalui kereta kakak saya semasa berkumpul untuk pergi shopping ditesco membeli barangan BBQ. sumpah berkenan. kecil hati bila si suami masuk kereta kawan perempuan kakak dan tak naik kereta bersama saya dan kakak saya.(coi walaupun sewaktu itu tidak pernah bertegur siapa atau mengenali, sudah gatal-miang rasa macam dia boipren i). di tesco sedaya upaya menarik perhatian si suami walaupun dia buat dek je dekat haku!
terus nyah, tunjuk skill pilih udang dan sebagainya. masih dia buat dekkkk jek.
lepas tu di rumah kawan kakak tunjuk skills buat potato salad. still dia dengan control machonya bakar ayam tanpa henti sepanjang malam. lalu saya cuma mampu mejeling melalui kepulan asap BBQ berperisa macam-macam.

bertemu di ruang tamu pun jeling-menjeling. haram. the only ayat that keluar malam itu ialah, makanlah, sedap ni BBQ. (sebab aku tak makan sangat pun , terlalu miang, control ayu. dan bila difikirkan balik, kompem aku nampak macam gedik kan sebab aku cuba jadi sopan santun, ya allah malunya...)

sekarang suami saya sudah tahu saya sangat pervert.:-D
ps: suami saya mampu mengangkat saya yang gemuk ini. wah.

5.okay fine, saya mengaku saya memang suka sangat suami saya sebab saya obsess dengan dia.FINE SAYA OBSESS!
apa yang suami buat semua senang di mata saya. (walaupun dia kentut) cis. dasar cinta. sumpah saya sangat angau walaupun sudah masuk 3 tahun bercinta. sudah berkahwin masuk 4bulan. angau angau angau. saya sudah angau.

6. he can cook man!
he makes great pulut urian, kerabu, spaghetti, and many more. pergh. suami bila masak, gua memang ehm ehm, pervert. hahahahah lepas makan kompem segala marah,merajuk, hilang.

7. he never ever ever marah me.
tak pernah marah langsung. sumpah bahagia. (or maybe sebab saya baik sangat kan, tak ada perkara nak marah kan) tegur dengan nada yang baik, sopan -santun, hormat. mana tak cair. adoi. sukanya....


pergh dah dua post puji mamat ni, takkan tak dapat ape-ape kot?

kisah suami saya

suami saya ni pemalu orangnya, setelah berkahwin pun, dengan saya masih malu-malu. comel, berbanding dengan saya, sangat berbeza. saya tak ada perasaan sangat.hahah

kalau hal-hal intim lagi la dia ni pemalu orangnya. hahahah

anyway,
pada suatu hari, suami saya datang ke tempat bekerja saya kerana ada sesuatu perkara yang ingin dilakukan. tiba-tiba, rakan sekerja saya muncul dan bertanya kan kepada suami saya:
"Buas hani ni .."
jawapan suami saya, "memang buas pun"
hhahahahahaha

okay fine...saya memang buas,
suami saya sangat tenang. sangat! manakala saya punya sangat kalut dan buas.
suami saya sangat penyabar! saya sangat kurang sabar.
suami saya sangat periang! saya sangat emosi
suami saya sangat lemah-lembut percakapannya. saya sangat kasar dan kuat.
suami saya sangat teliti dan saya sangat cincai
suami saya sangat sentimental, saya kurang.

memang yang baik, suami saya, yang teruk ialah saya.hahahahhaha
okay, saya memang sedang untuk cuba berubah.


just now i talked to the phone with my father in law wishing him happy birthday. right after i hang up, my husband imitate me, on how i talked on the phone.
one words: "GEDIK"
That will happen if i try to acted all lemah lembut. duh...i hate myself when im doing so. that is how i am to the patient nowadays.
but in respect to the elderly and especially our parents, of course we will speak in low tune , nicely and politely. i just sounded gedik when im doing so. hahahah


my english and grammer is real bad, but malays writing is as bad. coih.

something to remember about

my husband is a very cheerful man. he is. he is always smiling. he is never angry at me, upset or even condemn me. he is rarely upset or even sad.
unfortunately not me.haha i am almost always upset about something.

anyway, if ever my husband is upset or sad,i feel like a wall, falling down on me. it is so hard to see him like that. and i am trying very hard to be strong,i wish i can.
anyway,
i love you mr hubby. be strong.

Mengenali pasangan anda.

in response of this post from her. click here:-)

within a year and a half after knowing my husband we tied the knot.
im not like some of you, who knows your husband for 3,4,5 and even more years before actually get marry.
anyway,
before we were married, i was just like this. the way i am. i dint pretend,not even a single thing. i am crazy,loud,cranky,fierce,emotional, you name it.
and he seem to be accepting it.
As for him, he is very extremely caring, loving, serious, crazy too, soOOoO funny, dependable, responsible and etc.

when we got marry, (now it is almost 4 months), he is still the same. Being such an observer he really knew me too well by now.

just a sentence to explain the relationship between me and my husband i am so comfortable with him!

disebabkan saya jenis yang tidak cerewet, so macam mana pun perangai dia saya okay sahaja. begitu juga dengan dia .


maybe i am ignorance, but i dont really know how to explain him.hahah

hubby dinner.

owh and hubby so nice, i just mention that i want to eat cake, and he bought me not 1, not 2, but 3 slices of cakes. haha all my favorite.


my hubby will eat grilled chicken everyday. so almost every day i will make him grilled chicken for dinner. yesterday was garlic, grilled chicken, sliced potato with green beans. and today is oregano with black pepper grilled chicken with pakchoy and crunchy fried mushroom.

a bad workers??

as most of my friends knows that i hate being a pharmacist. my first ever ambition was to be a lawyer. i was so into being in a law field, previously, i memorize the history text book, and i was the english debaters team.
anyway,
when my father decided that i should be a pharmacist instead, i just agreed with him because i have no other choice, voicing out to him wasnt an option back then. i just follow the path he gave me.
i had a hard time studying pharmacy. as the interest is very low and it is hard for me to understand nor coping up with the studies. but i grad with good cgpa for my diploma, and better yet i was accepted in all the job interview i went to and even offered 6 jobs as a pharmacist assistant even before i graduated.
and so i work, and got a title of MAMA BOSAN by my sister whom, hate it whenever i came back from work all i did was sleeping. i was tired mentally and physically by doing something i dont really love.
one day, my dad told me that i will be furthering my studies to indonesia. for degree in pharmacy program for 2 and a half year.yikes, all the way the i go and got myself a degree.
and then came in the provisionally registered pharmacist( kind a houseman thingy like), it was horrible for me.i hate it even more.
and now a pegawai farmasi, where i am fully registered pharmacy, i am tired of doing this and hating going to work every morning! i was like huh? sampai bila ya?

and now i am trying my hardest to change. i am, like nicer to the patient. (but i am still strict, all those patient who begging me for more medicine or more supply of their drug, will be turn down) sorry.
i talked nicely, and smile a lot more even though as patient number strike 200 i can no longer smile or even look at their faces. tired!

and i dont know if i still want to be a lawyer.

currently i know i will be super duper master good in:
1)being an event planner! i love managing something(im bossy)
2)being a chef, haha i am skillful
3)interior or landscape designer
4)lawyer, i love a good smack on the head argument muahaha
5)lecturer or a teacher( get in class, do a quick lecture, quiz, smack student head, go home, cool!)

i know i should be thankful, that i am educated and a professional, that i have a good job, awesome family, marvelous husband, great friends, wonderful home and car, but i want to be able to say i love my jobs as well.
just that. maybe one day it will turn around, that maybe one day i will love my job, i know that day will come.(maybe when i become the boss) haha
but right now, i am just a pharmacist.

hand bouquet

for the reception

for the akad nikah
hand bouquet
i made this for my cousin wedding.i was supposed to make 3 hand bouquet. but in the end we used the same one during the reception on her side , for his side as well.and one during akad nikah.

i love doing them so much.


owh im selling my reception dress, and the veil as well.
any takers? do contact me.

i love

the smell of the rain

the smell of garlic being stir fry

the smell of roses

the smell of my husband.:-)

emoing

in my last post, haha, i am emo. such emo that i cant voice it out but write it out instead. why im such an emo? it is because i really hate those things that make me suffer. i bet you guys will be too if your in my place at that time. to tell you the truth i dont enjoy that moment at all. why must i like it.
anyway haha i can laugh about it now(after a doze of happy pills of my own) and it has been a past.
but at that day itself i cant laugh. i hate it.
anyway,

i get to know my dear lovely sayangness afiqah rahmat, from this blog. where i blog about my emoness.back then i was so emo(ouch now too, but for very much different reason)i was emo about my life(miserable as i study somehwere far from my family and friends), emo because of ex-boyfriend who miss treat me with a lot of things as if he is the ONE (duh!), because of my studies where i dont even enjoyed studying it( i hate pharmacy).
anyway now.

i hate my job because i hate studying it before. i hate the working environment to death.(it is a death place),but i love my friends who works there. they are the one who kept me going all this while.
but then i have so much to thank for nowadays.

for example:
my handsome tough adorable sweet sexy caring romantic down to earth trustworthy loyal lovable insya allah and many more.
my superb family,my awesome in law family and dazzling friends
my salary although i still felt like we are underpaid with all those workload
my own house, my own car.
myself to be proud of.

but i will still be emoing, why? because life is just like that. regardless all the good thing that is happening to me, there still test from god. that will make me emo.
sigh.with all this responsibilities, it is not easy to live on alone,alhamdullilah i have my awesome super hero hubby mr nik! yaayy!!

but regardless what, i cant lie to myself or anyone else. i am emo.
but then i rarely do so. because nowadays i am just simply like to keep it to myself, keep quiet. and i talked less too. make me think more(horrible actually)
it is not easy to make yourself happy why bother too impress other too much?

okay,pen off here. bye.

NOTEBOOK

i love beautiful, cool notebook. i almost adore those that is on display at KINUKONIYA bookstore klcc.
it is so pretty.

and i have this a few collection on notebook. that i bought from kinukuniya. do go and see there if you have a chance. quite a display.
anyway,
a dear blogger LINA, add me up on he reading list once upon a time,and i really appreciate it . and she is giving away 3 notepad.yay!
i do hope i get one.
soo lina plase choose me:-)

i officially hate adat istiadat whatsoever. hate it hate it hate it

for i dont know what is the reason, my family is very freely, low on following this adat istiadat culture thing of malays.
and my wedding only have a few, or none, i dont know.
but i really glad i dont have any of it as it is a burden and menyusahkan family members. hell.
i hate them.
i find it useless to bersanding and get thrown with daun and inai and air. what? the purpose and outcome of it?tell me? if nak anggap, bayangkan, tak payah la. buang masa.
dah tu berarak ok i paham, but having toll? wth? tegah panas terik, buat-buat tak nak kasik lalu, sedangkan mamat tu dah kawin pun dengan perempuan tu? wth! ??? sumpah kalau nak main game macam tu dok kat negara sejuk beku takpe la wei, ni panas peluh meleleh buat ape?

sumpah, and im glad i dont do such nonsense to menyusahkan any of my family or friends!
ish.


sorry just a blurt out on my sense of anger and frustration and im so tired.
for those who enjoy it, go on. Good for you.

but im against it and definitely hate it!


takut nak ikut sesuatu yang syirik, dah la dosa dah banyak ni, nak tambah sesuatu yang lain, sia-sia, baik tak payah. and that is for me.

back

back then when in my wedding day, i dint regret any single thing.
my akad nikah is very special to me.
my reception was humble enough for me to enjoy it, (as i hate attention from people) i was embarrassed all the time and dont want people to look at me.
just that,i have no idea why.

but i really do glad for what i choose. i dont spent much for my wedding day and i dint turn out to be a bridezilla.
everything was perfect the way it is.
except that my photographer was not the one i want. so just that.

and i love it because i had a good time with mr hubby, greeting each one of our guest and the fact that my friends had a good time lepaking at my wedding for hours! just that.

i dont need fancy wedding, just the memory is enough. so ladies, dont exxagerate on your wedding day. too many guest you invite, mmg wedding meriah, but do you even got a change to say hello to each one of them? do you? i did. and im glad.