Sayang anak

Today i got a very devastated news, a friend of mine son passed away due to leukemia. he is 2 years old. the only child.

i cried and cried. especially with this raging hormone and my daughter is sick at the moment. and im here working. because i cant afford another day off. because my IN TRAY is filled. and i need to order drugs and because of that i sent aleena to taska. bodoh punya mak kan.
Ya allah aku berlindung padamu. Lindungilah anakku Aleena.

Sayang pada anak tu, masya allah, tak terungkap. cuma yang ada anak tahu betapa kuatnya kuasa sayang anak tu.
betapa 24 jam minda pada anak. betapa segalanya untuk anak.

even with my husband whenever we watch movies together and there are scene of toddlers we will look at each other and smile cause it always remind us of Aleena.
that is how powerful her bond with us.

Anak adalah anugerah Allah s.w.t dan pinjaman -NYA juga, tapi i wish my aleena is for me to keep and jaga forever. i really really am falling in love with her too deeply to loose her.i cant imagine my friend feeling of loosing his son. i just cant.

Aleena memang selalu sakit. the comment in the facebook. "eh aleena sakit lagi" is so inappropriate when i actually only request for doa.
aleena memang senang sakit but senang nak dijaga sangat. tak banyak complaint and merengek. makan ubat paksa sikit pun telan semua. tak muntah or keluarkan balik. muntah keluar ikut hidung pun tak nagis.
masya allah. cuma dia demam memang lama. sedih.. senang jangkit dari mama dia yang selalu sakit ni. 
adoi.  ni dia demam 10 hari! i pun sakit asthma and demam. imagine that. and people put such comment.
wahhhh untunglah anak kau selalu sihat maknyah.


tak apalah dugaan allah supaya aku lebih menyayangi dan menghargai aleena.