baby in training

berapa minggu sebelum kerja anda mula train tinggal baby anda? saya minggu ni. sebab minggu depan nak start kerja dah.
omg so susah. i cry 5 times today since this morning!

tengok anak dari celah pintu bilik, dia tengah main sorang -sorang, rindu nak peluk dia. menagis T_T

tengah pump susu dengar dia merengek, panggil mama dia la. menagis T_T

balik dari jusco pergi beli beras , dengar dia merengek tengah tukar pamper. mama dia menagis T_T

tadi dia bangun nak susu, merengek lagi , mama dia yang menagis T_T

basuh pump kat dapur, dengar anak merengek, dia mengantuk , mama dia menagis lagi T_T sampai terlepas mangkuk, berderai pecah.

over tak? hambik kau. people know me for such a keras person, but i am such a soft hear-ted person. gila. dengan anak lain gila. tak sangka sampai macam ni. tak tinggal pergi office lagi. gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

alhamdullilah, i got a pengasuh for aleena,at my own home, tak payah hantar nursery. if not, aku meraung sepanjang hari la kot. gila gila gila feeling. ini feeling indescribable.

pump susu alhamdullilah, walaupun tak meriah. pagi tadi pukul 8 am dapatlah 6 oz. tengahari tadi pukul 12 pm dapat 5 oz. sebab tak makan lagi kot. tengok nanti kol 4 pm pulak.

alhamdullilah aleena has been trained earlier for bottle. and her pengasuh seem good enough in taking care of aleena.

i cant handle much with this emotion. hopefully will be better soon.
my mum says i am to extreme tinggal aleena terus 1 whole day. but what to do. i am even more worried if aleena pengasuh give up. so nak cepat cepat.

stock susu ada. trying to add on. hopefully boleh. if tak boleh kita rotate sahaja stock yang ada. risau kena outstation. tapi if kena bawak je la pengasuh aleena kan. apa susah. sigh sigh.

hari tu pergi check up aleena she is now 6.2kg. alhamdullilah. sedut mama banyak banyak..sekrang all the old baju kurung can be wear again. lebih kurus dari sebelum my wedding day.muahahahhaha


susah hatinya tinggal anak. tak sangka rasa macam ni, feeling yang sangat wow! can love someone so deeply after your husband and family.
sumpah lebih rela jadi full time MOTHER. tapi nak buat macam mana hidup di alam yang mencabar ini. sabarje la..


so my new routine before work is that:
wakes up at 5 am lepas ni nak try pump, if tak boleh sufficient enough with feeding her at 6 am and pump at work at 8 am.

and off to work.(but for now, off to my mother house)