im pregnant

it is confirm. i am so far pregnant. 4 weeks and 4 days.
insya allah if this baby is surely mine, then it will be in god willing.

i have seen doctor just now to confirm.
heheheheheheheh


okay i am now on folic acid, and calcium( i cant drink milk as i am lactose intolerance), and fish oil.
as for now i have immediately quit drinking coffee.
owh coffeeeee kuuu.
i miss you.

hand bouquet

for the reception

for the akad nikah
hand bouquet
i made this for my cousin wedding.i was supposed to make 3 hand bouquet. but in the end we used the same one during the reception on her side , for his side as well.and one during akad nikah.

i love doing them so much.


owh im selling my reception dress, and the veil as well.
any takers? do contact me.

i officially hate adat istiadat whatsoever. hate it hate it hate it

for i dont know what is the reason, my family is very freely, low on following this adat istiadat culture thing of malays.
and my wedding only have a few, or none, i dont know.
but i really glad i dont have any of it as it is a burden and menyusahkan family members. hell.
i hate them.
i find it useless to bersanding and get thrown with daun and inai and air. what? the purpose and outcome of it?tell me? if nak anggap, bayangkan, tak payah la. buang masa.
dah tu berarak ok i paham, but having toll? wth? tegah panas terik, buat-buat tak nak kasik lalu, sedangkan mamat tu dah kawin pun dengan perempuan tu? wth! ??? sumpah kalau nak main game macam tu dok kat negara sejuk beku takpe la wei, ni panas peluh meleleh buat ape?

sumpah, and im glad i dont do such nonsense to menyusahkan any of my family or friends!
ish.


sorry just a blurt out on my sense of anger and frustration and im so tired.
for those who enjoy it, go on. Good for you.

but im against it and definitely hate it!


takut nak ikut sesuatu yang syirik, dah la dosa dah banyak ni, nak tambah sesuatu yang lain, sia-sia, baik tak payah. and that is for me.

back

back then when in my wedding day, i dint regret any single thing.
my akad nikah is very special to me.
my reception was humble enough for me to enjoy it, (as i hate attention from people) i was embarrassed all the time and dont want people to look at me.
just that,i have no idea why.

but i really do glad for what i choose. i dont spent much for my wedding day and i dint turn out to be a bridezilla.
everything was perfect the way it is.
except that my photographer was not the one i want. so just that.

and i love it because i had a good time with mr hubby, greeting each one of our guest and the fact that my friends had a good time lepaking at my wedding for hours! just that.

i dont need fancy wedding, just the memory is enough. so ladies, dont exxagerate on your wedding day. too many guest you invite, mmg wedding meriah, but do you even got a change to say hello to each one of them? do you? i did. and im glad.

weekend

i worked on friday night until saturday morning.
went back home and slept until 1pm.
woke up feeling so disoriented and went to bother mr hubby for lunch.

as for today we went to a friend wedding. she is a blogger too and coincidently her father is my father's friend.
this is her

tonight i need to iron all my and his office attire. hate it.
weekend is not enough. luckily we only work for 3 days this week! yeah!

wedding

I know that in this age usually my friend will tie their knot. But unfortunately most of the wedding that i attend involve going to my father's friend daughter/son wedding day!

But sometimes, due to some coincident, i dont know from where, hehe, it happens that my father's son/daughter is my friend too!
:-) or the son. daughter weds my friend. etc etc.
anyway, today im going to yet another wedding of his friends, but i dont know any of the bride or the groom, but since this B2B blogging thingy, i might end up going to one of them.
it happen twice already!
haha.


okay, off to the wedding. it is in shah alam and we usually will go early as we would like to reach there by 12pm. eat and leave.

that is my father style. rarely wait to see the newly weds! bengang! i love seeing the bride and groom, especially the bride as i am fond of the dresses!
hehe owh but whatever did all the b2b out there has the same influence as me? that is whenever i go to a wedding reception nowadays i always look out for the maybe do it yourself or any style that b2b who blog always do.

such as, the decor, the centerpiece, the guestbook, the dessert table etc etc.
do you?

i do.

pictures

i have been looking for this picture for a long time. none of the camera that was on my wedding day capture this. until i found out that my uncle took this picture. yay.
this is the 1st dessert table i have for my wedding. this one is for after nikah.
i dint get a chance to have any bite of course. but i love it!

and hoping this picture soon from my OP will be great.

sob sob

i jumped onto mr nik back just now to ride into the lift. but suddenly i let go his hand and there i fall on the floor, my back hit the lift door and the pain is taking away my breath. sakit.

uwa....i cry..


uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa stilll hurt.

bilik pengantin

bilik pengantin yang dulunya cantik sekrang sudah bertukar menjadi biasa. aduh, sedihnya. bila dipakai hari-hari tak relevan bilik nak stay macam hotel. like in my case, our room is everything there is.
ini tempat tidur, bermain, kerja, sidai baju pun sama.
sigh.

cooking

my husband and i dindt decide on cooking task.who shall cook what and so on. since the day we got married, hubby has been preparing breakfast for both me and him. he always have breakfast every morning even before we got married, as for me i am not. so he made us breakfast everyday never failed!

then, as for me i made lunch and dinner.
he has this almost strict diet of food that he used because he likes body building and so his ffod is more or less grilled chicken and fish so forth.
so its easy for me..yay! ahahhahah i wanted to cook rice and the dishes but he wont eat so what is the point.

i have been making grilled dowry fish with garlic lemon butter sauces.
crispy chicken garden salad.
grilled chicken with mushroom sauces.
and so on.
veyr easy. life is great.hehe


anyway, today both mr nik and i are not working. i am down with fever and upper respiratory infection, and im on antibiotic.

dont want to infect mr nik.
off to bed yet again.

husband tummy

aish, my husband request for spaghetti oglio olio la pulak. tadi i cook masak lemak pucuk paku and sambal tumis ayam for him, since he already ate rice, he wont be eating them anymore(baru nak ajak makan nasik lemak ayam panas malam ni), cancel!
he will do the grocery shopping, owh that's remind me i need to run to the bank now or else tak berbayar la rumah bulan ni.hahahahahhahah kena halau dok dalam kereta.

owh im still trying to fit into this wife thingy, hard for me because mr nik is my bestfriend. so to treat him solely like a husband is very difficult. hahah anyway im happy this way as long as mr nik is okay with it!

the end

it is the end of my wedding. everything. im glad that everything went well. i dont put high hopes or expectation on my wedding day, not only it is on a very tight budget( i spent the whole thing including baju and kenduri ) not mere or more than rm20k. for a kuala lumpur wedding it is cheap.

i dont know if i wanted to continue with this blog, or maybe i will. depend. i might write here things or stuff i do as a wife.
i wanted to be this chic, happening and cool wife.
but it is not easy with my work and all.
im not only a wife but a daughter to a very busy parents.hahah they have their own plan and schedule that need me as a driver and as a executor.
damn...heheh and my husband now is being a part of it.
my parents lives with us. so yeah. hehe


today im still on leave, while my husband is working. we postponed yet again our honeymoon due to this. you see, my husband and i both has this same attitude where we put others before us. as for his side reception, we end up staying a day more as we wanted to spend time more with his sibling and parents.
and then he suddenly got a called from his company that needed him to come to work. so sigh..


and as for me i had to go to hospital kuala lumpur on my off day because my brother is down with a fever and needed to do blood sample. and he is now on antibiotic.


so here i am blogging.


im confuse, do i want to do pregnancy planning or not.
i still want to enjoy just the two of us. but i want baby too.
sigh sigh sigh...help!confuse.

mr nik side wedding:-)

was great! i enjoyed every minutes of it. i love mr nik family so much. some picture with me wearing the pink dress. owh in the first place i wasnt intended to spend much on make up, but i did anyway and im glad i did it, the make up was awesome and worth every penny. i was reluctant to wash it off that evening but i had to anyway right. heheheehe

majlis bertandang

next week is the majlis bertandang, i was just booked a make up artist that will cost me rm250. sigh.hahahhahahaa another money to spend. anyway, gotta look awesome as well on the other side right!
can we actually hold flowers on the other side as well? i mean in bertandang? will it look nice and apprioriate? ..i have no idea.

piccas from the photographer(only six)sob sob

during wedding day

1.my photographer forgot about my wedding day! he sent a replacement whom i am not very keen of. so i dindt even do a post wedding outdoor photoshoot. i gave up!i have low expectation on the wedding picture, i dindt take as many as i should anyway. because the junior photographer is boring! im telling you, no hype no character no idea a bit lazy and so unmotivated. so in the end i dont have the motivation myself. i hate him!

2. my caterer sucks big time. he dindt mention to my parents at 2.30 pm the food has already finish. luckily my auntie went to a restaurant and bought replacement food for other people who came later.but the food was nice.


3.my heels broke on me at around 1.30pm, that i have to balance on my broken heels for a while before i went up to my room shoeless and replace with an old black heels.

4.then the rain came down for like 15 minutes. but i dont mind, it cool the air off.

5. at 3.45, there were 2 children came down and started swimming, rude. dindt the parents tell them to at least hormat my majlis?

6.but other than these few things, i love my wedding day. actually during that time itself, i dont think much. im in love with the wedding day itself. having fun with my husband that we went around talking to the guest.

7. there were actually 2 dessert table on my wedding day. the first one was after the akad nikah, where everyone jump into cakes, kuih-muih, cupcakes etc while waiting for lunch to be served and the bride and groom went upstairs to gatal(hehehe change to my reception dress) and the other one is during the reception itself.
where on earth is the picture, i am counting on the photographer to take the picture.

the hantaran

the watch and the perfume.
the chocolates
sireh
the cake
the fruits basket
i do it myself. so have a look :-)

husband

i dont fully familiarize with the idea of being a wife yet. i havent prepared any meal for him yet. i have yet to iron his cloth or whatsoever.
but today he is sick. he is coughing. this is only the 2nd time i have ever seen him sick. the first one when he was admitted due to dengue and now this. i am having a sore throat myself either.
perhaps due to the stress and the wether during our wedding day lead to this.
while he was asleep after i give him some cough medicine, i am updating this. he is snoring away sleeping. GOOD.
so far i love being married.
im only worried of the problem we gonna face in the future and our first fight, 2nd, 3rd etc etc etc.
sigh.
as for now i shall not think of it.
tomorrow insya allah we are heading to avillion.
bye

honeymoon

today is the second day of our marriage life.
we dindt manage to go anywhere yet for our honeymoon.
yesterday we stay the whole day at home, cleaning up after the wedding mess.
we had a good lunch and dinner courtesy of my parents who is still celebrating us as a newlyweds! heheh
and then we manage to go to our aunties house.

as for today, we did something a regular date. which previously whenever we are out on a date i am always rushing to get back home before night.
but today, we went out from early morning(to sevice my car) and watch 2 movies, had lunch at our favourite san francisco steak house and my dad havent call a single time. which previously by this hour he will have called thousand times already asking me when will i be home!
that;s a change.(make me sad as well)

anyway,
we are actually planning to just crash in to any hotel in KL for our honeymoon, but luck is not on our side. most of the choosen hotel were fully book due to some global conference, and i am sad. but anyway we decided to head out to port dickson tomorrow instead. to avillion resort.

as for now, i am enjoying to tge max on being mr nik wife.

owh i shall write a long entry on how my wedding day went! thousand to share. owh one thing, my wedding shoe heels broke on me!!!! hhhahahahah funny. but nevermind i change it immediately to my old black heels. no problem there as i was too happy to simply care about minor thing!

okay off to the second movie! and tonight we are heading to ICITY shah alam. just for the sake i can stay out all night long!

random pictures