The last day of the year and the end of my pantang!

YahoOOOo although i am not that strict on my pantang days, but at least i can lay off the guilty part now!! and hubby hopefully wont be as strict to me anymore. hehe

went back to alor setar to bring baby aleena to meet up with her grandparents. she is one lucky baby who got both side of grandparents. cause my niece not as lucky as her. and of course she is the main attention this past few days. as tok umi dont wanna let her go. only during feeding time will she be handed to me. hehe so cute.


what is pantang to me?
pantang makanan yang berangin dan sejuk.
i do urut on the first 3 days and bertungku trough out my pantang. but miss out occasionally.
i do pakai stokin cause i find it is very comforting. i dont know why after giving birth i always felt a bit colder than before. chilly je rasa.
i do pantang ICE! and CAFFEIN!OMG none of this two for 44 days already? clap clap! and will go on from here on.
i do pantang seafood cause i am allergy to them , i dont wanna be itchy, no drugs can be taken dowh! other than that gua bantai semua. badan feel healthier.
i do go out to the malls but max 2 hours.cause of feeding time too.still not good at nursing in public.
i drink lots of water .


for next year i dont have any new year resolution precisely. but i do want to give the best for baby aleena! cant wait to see her progression! yippeee..



happy new year everyone!

hari yang tenang

got up, chat with mr hubby on the bed while cudding for a while. went out for a nice nasi lemak breakfast. and then went to the pasar to buy some fish, chicken and vege. came back, rest for a while. and cook some nasi ayam together with my husband. the house is quite. dad is sleeping, mum went out for mengaji al-quran and as usual brother is sleeping.just mr hubby and me.
bliss.

tenang.

22.10.11

will be my 26th birthday!
i dont know what i want.
but i do know for sure i want my baby girl to come out healthy and perfect insya allah.
other than that, i just pray and wish and hope my life will always be as happy as this forever.

YahOOoOOOO bonus raya

baru sahaja pening kepala nak beli katil baby bayar dengan ape. sekarang kerajaan alhamdullilah dah umumkan setengah bulan gaji! yahOOOOOOOO!!

i want my own house

well actually i already owned a house. bought with a price of rm350k. monthly installment of rm1430. but this month is rm1750.die. i think its the insurance or whatsoever. i am not willing to call the bank.to depress to even talked about it.

the problem here is that, i am living with my parents and a brother. and another brother who will be home during school holidays as he is in kolej yayasan saad melaka in form 4.
i have nooooOOOOoOOOOOoOO watsoever privacy at all. our life(my husband and ) are all in our little room.(master bedroom is occupy by my parents)
our room has become a public room where whenever people came by for them to nap or solat. yes people go in and out of the room often.
sigh.

my stuff is public stuff too. my siblings can venture my cupboard, dresser anytime they want without any respect.
i am lucky mr nik has yet to complaint, but i myself is not comfortable at all.
frustrated beyond belief.

i love having everyone home here, but i do want my own time alone.
sigh.i think i should be thankful that my family is close to me but privacy is something that i longed for.
i need and craving for.owh please.

i need to find a better pay job and buy another house to move out.

sunday

cepat betul weekend berlalu. sudah kembali ke weekdays.sigh

clean my room like super clean. because we need the space.
and hubby suap makan nasi. mengada? memang pun. mr hubby memang suka suap saya makan bersungguh-sungguh sampai habis sepinggan nasi.

dah malam ..pergi tidur, minggu ini sibuk sebab weekend kena pergi kursus.

sunday

i love my weekend so much.
today woke up feeling so damn hungry. hubby has listed down like everything that is possible to eat but still i am so indecisive. and in the end he decided to fry me some nasi goreng! superbly done. finish one big plate of it. thank you very much mr husband.

and he is not done feeding me, that he take me to levaine for lunch. we had some pasta and lots of pastries. :-)

for tonight my dad gonna belanja us nasi arab! yay!

i am so touch, my husband has been treating me like superbly superb. cooks and make drinks for me. while i dont. i just cant stand cooking for so long. take a lot of my energy off.

today my baby has been kicking more. yay..

and tomorrow we are working again.

what if...suami suruh berhenti kerja?

seriously speaking, i work my ass off to finish my studies. i am not ready born a bright student. i had to study very hard to achieve excellent result.
my primary and secondary school i was an average student for most of the subject. but i am a top student for some subject such as history and english because i would like to be a lawyer. haha

anyway when my father asked me to study pharmacy, i just follow as i dont have much argument to not do so.
as i proceed with the studies, i struggle most of the semester.my fellow classmate is OMG brilliant. most of them was a top scorer in spm and so forth. so yeah. i am a no one.

finish up my diploma with alhamdulillah 3.0pointer and above, work for almost a year when my father send me to do my degree in indonesia. thankfully it is only for 2 and a half year. i struggle too. hahaha

anyway, now that i am working, i felt so bless that i follow my dad advice, but only financially. hahah but the satisfaction is none. i hate working in the hospital. and so i was thinking of becoming a housewife.

i am pretty sure it would be a dissapointment to my parents if i do so. haha i dont know the truth i just figure it out. but when my husband can fully support us financially i will eventually stop working. i would love to have my own business. but being a mom for sure will give me the satisfaction i am looking for in my career.

as for now. i am a working mom to be, so deal with it!

peaceful relaxing sunday

it is coming to an end. i need to wait the whole freaking 5 days until weekend come again. how come weekdays is so long but weekend is so short? so unfair.

this morning woke up at 9 am, went straight to the laptop to surf, hubby is preparing his breakfast, (as usual im not eating, as i dont have the appetite), my dad is listening to some jazz music in his room and im chilling to that as well.

then mr hubby give me a good massage, doze off when my mum call me up ask me if i wanted to go and find my sulur keladi which is a frustration as the food court dont have any.

went back , eat lunch (taste blurghh), sleep again, woke up and watch some movies with mr hubby and then we chat for 2 hours when we realize it is 9pm and hubby yet to eat his dinner. (again, im not eating).

clean up my room a bit, do some laundry and i shall go to bed again. hahahaha

really , peaceful sunday.

perempuan ketika bercinta

perempuan hanya boleh mencintai seorang sahaja lelaki dalam hidupnya. selebihnya kasih dah sayang mungkin akan tertumpah pada anak-anak mereka.
suami on the other hand, they can love many. that is why they are allowed to do poligami. dont deny it. but the truth is, kalau setakat boleh bercinta banyak, tapi tak mahu memberikan nafkah zahir, jangan fikir la ye wahai tuan-tuan. selagi masih terpaksa mengharapkan isteri bekerja bagi membantu urusan perbelanjaan harian, dan tidak mampu memberikan keperluan terutamanya kewangan, jangan harap la ya.
aku rasa sebab tu la isteri-isteri salih yaacob, tak boleh menghalang suami mereka berkahwin lain. memang mampu. tengok financial dia. kan? dari segi lain aku tak boleh komen sebab aku tak kenal dia.

perempuan kalau sudah mencintai seseorang itu, kekasih mereka buat salah banyak kali pun masih menerima. memang terus terang aku cakap, dari pandangan dan observation aku la kan, perempuan ni agak bodoh semasa bercinta. kerana hati kita lembut, perasaan sayang susah nak hilang dan kita ini sudi memaafkan.
terutamanya kalau itu adalah suami kita.

tujuan aku menulis post kali ini adalah kerana sahabat baik aku.
dia sudah break up dengan kekasihnya. di mana dia sanggup kehilangan kawan-kawan kerana lelaki ini. kami dulu berlima. selepas dia bercinta dengan lelaki ini, dia lupakan semua kawan dia kerana bagi lelaki itu kami ini adalah tidak baik. B*** S***
and she believe him. all because of love kan? and she ditch us!
(never ever left your friend for the sake of a love, stupid)
anyway, of course la lelaki yang suka mengcontrol perempuan atau kekasih dia for the sake and showing off how he is the man, arrogant and selfish tak kemana. di takdirkan lelaki ini curang. ada perempuan lain.and they broke off.

stupid enough, the girl who masa lepas break up so frustrated, change herself to the old her and try to connect back to her bff.
anyway, the guy suddenly realize that the new lover is nothing like her. and wants to get back together. for his reason is she is way much better.

and you guess it right, she forgive him and get back together. STUPID! so not worth it. if a guy ditch you for another girl, he is so not worth it! im telling you, he got the free ticket to do it again ! regardless dia cakap dah berubah ke ape ka, he knows if he did it again, he can always come back to you.
dia akan sentiasa buka option dia, to choose who is the best to be his lifelong partner.
seriously ladies, please, once is enough, how can you endure such pain over and over again from the same guy?

i can share you this, because i had gone trough a breakup. it is painful! worse it was a 5 years relationship.but im not stupid. a week is enough ladies to mourn over the relationship. dont mourn for the guy, but the time you waste for such a guy. and alhamdullilah lucky me Allah s.w.t has shown me what an a**h*** he is.until now.

but it is all up to you now ladies. as for my friend, she insist wants to give the guy a second chance. i wish her all the best. and of course she ditches us already now! hahahahah typical when girl is in love.
but i have learn my lesson, i am so lucky to have such bestfriend who stick with me regardless how i behave and teach me the value of friendship , love and life.

remember take the lesson you had in life as a guidance for the future. stupid enough to be fool once, dont make it happen again.

rindu makanan JOGJA

i miss my daily food while im back then in Yogyakarta Indonesia. for 2 and half years eating this food doesnt make me bored at all. i wish i can have them all here in malaysia.first and foremost i miss ayam bakar in this shop. the sambal is to die for. sedapnya. ish..melel
then sambal special. its sambal terung is the best ever!

even the simple friend chicken has taken my heart away.yogya chicken.




lotek. is somewhat like gado-gado.. my favourite. sigh. rindu.




merdeka bakery that sell my morning kueh, that usually i ate with cili padi on its own!
my favourite nasik padang!
rindu.

motherly instinct

i work in a hospital. where i dispense medication to hundreds of patient everyday.
anyway, sometimes there will be babies crying because i am pretty sure by the time they end up in pharmacy they are all exhausted and just wanted to get home.
babies....

usually we will give ways to this mother with crying babies, where we will make do their meds faster and let them go home.
and other patient wont mind too. well let just say the sound of babies crying is not a nursery rhymes.

but this one incident that i noticed is that, one day a baby cried. omg so loud. and i pity the baby so much. i was looking over the counter trying to spot the baby and the mother. but i couldn't find. then my friend pint point a lady sitting without her baby on her lap or not she is not cuddling the baby.
so where is the baby???!!!
on the floor. a toddler i must say a one year old!
stupid mother! she dress her baby well in a cute pink dress. but dare to let her baby crying (maybe releasing her tantrum) on the flood of a hospital! how stupid is that!??????????????!!!!!!!!

come on! if your tired nonetheless of your baby tantrum, your baby is sick! you should console her! stupid mother! not dropping your baby on the floor just because you are giving up!
stupid mother!


sumpah.


tolonglah...janganlah anda semua nak kahwin, just because nak kahwin, nak reception yang grand, nak nikah day, nak dress cantik cantik, nak semua tu sebab semua kawan dah kahwin! kahwin is a big responsibility! please only get marry if you are truly ready!


jangan ada anak if you think just as semua orang kahwin beranak , aku nak beranak jugak! semua orang ada anak aku nak anak jugak, semua orang kata anak tu rezeki nak ada anak juga. ramai orang nak ada anak just because dah kahwin kenalah ada anak. anak is a big responsibility ! kalau tak ready tolonglag family planning. macam mana nak tahu ready, amik anak sesiap jaga seharian, kalau berak pun susah nak tolong basuh, pampers tak tahu nak salin bila, nak pujuk bebudak makan pun tak tahu, nak kasi tido pun tak reti, nak kasi attention tak pandai dan sebagainya..
atau erti kata lain, kalau masih mementingkan diri sendiri, masih rasa nak dapatkan sesuatu untuk diri sendiri, tak reti nak sacrifice untuk anak dan family. jangalah kahwin atau ada anak! atau erti kata lain ...SELFISH! tak payah la.....!!

tolonglah...


emosi aku teringat budak tu dok atas lantai.benci mak macam tu. aku dispense pun rasa nak tampar muka perempuan tu!

spending time with mr hubby

we went back to my in law house in alor setar. my family in law treating me awesomely. i feel so bad for not helping out much as i am so damn tired. by the second day i almost recover we went back to kuala lumpur already. haha.

those 2 days i spend more time with mr hubby in the room relaxing with nothing distracting us. well in KL we have UNIFI were both of us spend a lots of time surfing the net, and work of course.

i just love lying on the bed, talking to mr hubby especially those days when we are still a couple. the memories is just amazing..

okay tomorrow still a holiday for me...
off to bed.

on being pregnant(again)

im not on any birth control pill. i just go with the flow.
the thing that i am so afraid that im pregnant is that what if i dont know how to take care of the pregnancy?
i am often sick.
i rely solely on drugs to feel better.
if im pregnant i cant take any drugs( i mean most of it)
what if i cant stand the symptoms? especially when i got my allergy?
sigh.

anyway not only that, whatever it is we dont have a solid plan on how to take care of the baby?!
i mean ....sigh.
okay....whatever

on being pregnant

nope, i am not pregnant yet. but even the thought of it kind a scare me.
why? dont even asked. i dont think that we are capable of taking care of a baby right now. in many ways.
financially
emotionally
timing!
workload!
space!
house!
maid?! where to find? money to pay for it?
career wise?
health issues? as i always depend on drugs for every symptoms that came upon me!
hahahahahha

but i am planning anything. maybe Allah s.w.t knows that we have all those problem and we are not capable of haha